Uncertainty is "Certainty"

 

  

 

 

           "Destiny is unchangable". But, there are many different paths and crossroads we choose along the way. I believe that everyone has one moment in their life, something so momentous that all that went before, and all that will go after will seem different. You will look back at that one moment as the day your life changed and whether for good or bad, that is destiny."

 

            Someone defined the meaning of 'destiny' and that touched me...          

 

                                                    

 

  So it's time to move again... I've been living here for more than 6 months and I love this place!! Can you imagine living and working on a beautiful island...?? after work you can take a short walk for 5 mins and then your feet are already on white and soft sand. Right infront of you is the fantastic view of the blue sea and skyand also the green green mountains at the end of the horizon.

 

Im sure I'll miss the life here and all the nice people I know... But life has to move on... I'm glad once I used to live on this beautiful island. But it's not the place I'm gonna live for the rest of my life.... I still need to explore the world and figure out what I really wanna be and do after this...

 

By the way, so now I'm seeking for a good job in Bangkok. I hope I'll get one soon :P

 

 

Peace

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sometimes you can't deny that you gotta lose something you don't want to. No matter how hard you try, you're not gonna win... I'm talking  about fate , karma , destiny or whatever you wanna call it....

 I have given in to something above who draws the endline of the relationship between him and me and makes me realize that I had him only for that period of my life but not for the life time... Therefore, I'm giving up trying to change our fate...  

 

 

 

 

  why does everything seems going good untill the moment I have to make decision.... things seem go wrong.......

 

       It's been a long long time since my last update... Basically because I haven't had time to do it. I've been working really hard since I came to this island. It's fun working here but on the other hand it also makes me feel so lonely. Can you imagine coming to live on an island where you never knew anybody before. Many things happened during the last 3 months, I would say it's a very intense moment in my life...

 

       Now I'm working as a Guest Relation Supervisor for a resort. I don't even know if this is what I really wanna do. I need time for myself to think about my future. Mean while I have to learn things as much as I could before I have to leave this place.

 

      I wish someone I want to be with could come and stay here with me...

 

Rumours and scandals

I've just realized how words could hurt my feelings badly.... Yes, rumours and scandals that's what I'm talking about.  Sometimes it even has more effect than an action.  Its's a bad feeling knowing that there's nobody you can really trust and noone whom you can really talk to or rely on when you're feeling so lonely...

I've been living on a small beautiful island. The village where I'm living now seems to be a great place for local people to talk about everyone who comes for a long or even short stay... Having a date with a guy, you would be talked about the next day and of course not in a possitive way.

At the beginning when it was just starting it couldn't hurt me. But now it's too much and I'm feeling so sick of it. It's a shame that such terrible things seem like something unavoidable here... If you like the place and love to stay here for long then you gotta forget and not to care about what others say about you... or you would just have to leave this beautifuland and go live in a big city where people dont even care about their neighbours. Things always have two sides, that's the best way to describe the situation here. The nature here gives me life but not the way local people treat each other... Let's see how I'm gonna deal with it.... 

 

 

 

 

 

 

          "sometimes you're forgotten by someone who's always on your mind..."

 

What the f**k!!! I swear that I didn't see that d*mn advertising board!!!!! Wanna know the story??This is where it begins... Today morning while I was crossing the street and heading to my office, I was carrying many things in my hand. I looked down into my bags just to check if I got everything I needed. I kept walking and didn't realize that there was a small advertising board ahead until my face hit it really hard. I mean so F**KING HARD that the first thing I saw immidiately was my blood running out of my lips. I could feel the pain right away like half of a second after that. My lips kept on bleeding for a few hours today, I would say at my lunch time it was still bleeing... That really sucks. I think now I have my lips look like Angelina Jolie's. LOL That's a really stupid thing that ever happend to me in my entire life,as I could rememember. I can't believe I didn't see that god d*mn advertising board!!! Who the hell put it right there!!! The End

 

 

 

  I wanna tell the world that I got a new job already!! i went for the job interview today morning and guess what??? I have to start my work right away tomorrow !:-) It's kinda interesting job. It's a singaporean company. I'm gonna have to contact the main office there a lot. it's gonna be fun... i hope :-)

My holiday is over now. It's work time again!!!!!!

    yeah, i'm scared of losing someone i love... it's unacceptable.... however i'm gonna have to take what life gives me... cos if i try to deny it i'd only get more struggling. i know how the combination of love and pain tastes like... it really sucks... i wish someone could come and take away all these bad feelings...

 

   it's life... you gotta live and learn. that's true.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  

 

    I just surprised myself by something I've just done. I made a handmade card as a bd present for someone!! i also bought a big bunch of roses and a lovely bd cake and made reservation for a nice restaurant!!!!!  you know,it's really the first time i do something like this :-)

  Why am i puting so much effort doing so many things for this person????  i guess this is giving a sign of something...??? don't you think??

 

 when someone says "I don't give a shit" it means he/shes does give a shit cos if they did't really do they wouldn't say or talk about it.

 

when someones says "nothing" then it means "something" for sure...

 

when someone " ignores" you,it means that he/she at least still wanna know how you're doing or what's going on with you..

 

well,i think i'm all like that... as well...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 My best friends... they are all working outbound. i hardly see you guys... Damn!!! I miss ya all!!!!!!!

 

Student life... i miss all the time when i was at my university and all my classmates. bullshit conversations,crazy things we liked to do,class skipping,university activities... *sigh*

 

 

 

 

 

 

yeah,i'm so f*kced up right now...

 

  lately,i've been feeling so weird... . i just dont know what the hell is going on with my life... next saturday i've gotta move out from my apartment where i've been satying for 4 years. the new place is right in  the downtown of bangkok. i hope my life is gonna be more exciting than it is now.

      everyday i keep searching for jobs. well,i only know i wanna work but i don't know what kind of jobs i really wanna do. i never take any interview appointments offered by some companies... i'm so picky about it,i know...  

     so now everyday i'm free,kinda though... everyday always the same routines, wake up,go to eat,search for jobs on the internet,go to eat again and sleep... only sometimes go shopping and seeing movies... i used to party a lot but i'm so bored of it now:-( apart from those boring routines,the only thing that makes me feel better is seeing the man i love to spend time with. but then again he's like just like another illusion or my dream world that's gonna disappear when i wake up... time for us is running up ... damn it!!!!

     i've got not so many things in my life to think of at the moment. my family,my best friends,jobs, and him. i really hate this period of my life. i'm feeling like i'm wasting my time...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

lately,I've just learned one truth... some people they just don't appreciate good things they're given... why they just can't feel how important they are... at first I do care about them but now I don't give a shit any more...

why should I care about someone who doesn't even think about me... I hate liars and pretender...

Stay away from me...

 

well,i hope i'm gonna get a new good job soon...

 

   i can't believe it!! I have to work 20 days in a row!! Last week I worked for 5 days but had only about 8 hours of sleep!! Fcuking tired!!!  

            i havent updated my blogs for such a long time!!! now i'm not a student anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOW!!! i'm glad that i already finished my uniiversity....  but i'm also sad that i cant see my close friends as often as before anymore.... i will sure miss them a lot :-(((  well,it's life..... everything's changing and we have to move on to something new all the time....  i'm the first girl in my group who started working.... and since the last day at my university i met them only once!! i think it's the sign of adult life!!! we cant get to see friends and party that often like when we're still young!! LOL

 

        i just started my first full-time job last week. everything's been going well so far.... i get tired everyday but i really enjoy it:-)) i'm gonna work with this company only for 2 months and then i will look for another job....

 

 

    gotta go back to my work now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 

               Later